Well its been Thanksgiving and is now almost Christmas, soon to close the year…. What has that gotten me. It has gotten me many things both good and bad, and all I can really say is
I AM GLAD THAT SHES GONE!
I never used to think that I would feel that way, go figure. I shouldn't rant and rave but WTF. I ran into the X a few weekends ago and found that while I wasn't "glad" to see her, I wasn't bothered either. I guess that I am the only one that feels that way. Now I tend to over think things and draw conclusions where I shouldn't, so I put it out of my mind. Tonight I found her blog while surfing the net and being the dipshit I am read a few posts. Now I am rather pissed and very glad that I don't have to deal with her shit any longer. I just learned that the whole world is out to get me, I think everyone is stupid, and nothing is my fault. Hmmm, ok good to know. I thought that I would be able to be friends with her, after all 10 years is a long time, but I guess that I won't be. I cannot be friends with someone that can't see the good traits that I have. I helped to put her though college, rubbed her head when she had a headache, feet when they were sore, worked harder so she could go after a job that is frankly a waste of her tatents and ability, hell I would have given my job, health, hell even life had she just ask it. I cheerfully stuck my head in the sand while she lied to me, misled me, and cheated on me (4 time that I know of). Damn I guess I should have left her years ago…. I thought that by loving her more I could fix the problems that we had. I realized that I couldn't do that when she told the poor bastard who was our MC (a dude paid to listen and help) that she wouldn't quit her job had I ask. I realized that she is no longer worth my time. She simply is not the right woman for me. I need one that will put her family and love first, not a job. All that being said good luck *****, in life and in love. If you actually do find and read this , don't get pissed , after all if you don't want your thoughts read don't post them on the web.
The silver lining of the cloud is that I have known what love is and now I know what I really want in a woman.
ps. Its been snowing here for two days, I had forgotten how much I love the snow 
